Monday, August 26, 2013


I've been doing quite a bit of thinking lately. I've been thinking about...

  • My kids & their diabetes and how I can keep their sugars in control. I fear the Doctors think I'm a horrible mom.
  • The fact that this is the longest we have stayed in a place in the last 10 or so years. I put my foot down last year when HHH was let go from yet another job saying he needed to find a stable job, and that sure wasn't going to be apartment maintenance! It seems to be working out, but I'm afraid I have stifled him by demanding this change.
  • How I'm going to pay for college for Eldest. Seriously. She's smart as a whip, but I'm as broke as a joke. Scholarships may be our only option.
  • How many customers I need to survive working for myself. If I could get 5 weekly customers, I could justify upgrading my equipment and make a major contribution to our household. Right now, I make pocket $ for the kid's school stuff.
I was watching Futurama last night and I saw "Godfellas"(Season 4, Episode 8), where Bender got shot into space and ended up playing God to minuscule beings living on his body. He tries to help them and kills off a bunch. He tries NOT to help them and a bunch more get killed off. Finally, Bender ends up floating in the vicinity of a star mass that starts speaking to him.

Bender: I was God once.
God Entity: I saw. You were doing very well, until everyone died.

Yeah. I feel like that sometimes. Things go great, till everyone(figuratively) dies. And here I am trying not to let my kids (literally) die, or my husband be crushed by a job he doesn't enjoy. I don't like being the "bad" guy, but sometimes I have to be. It sucks. So now I'm trying to gather up more customers, get some shirts made, get the kids what they need for school, and run the house. Hopefully no one will die (figuratively).  My fave quote from Godfellas has to be...

God Entity: When you do things right, people won't be sure you've done anything at all.

I think that is going to be my personal/business quote and mantra. That and "The needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few, or one." Spock. I'll keep on chanting it.

Chanting it.

Friday, August 23, 2013


I'm gonna be busy being with my family so to entertain you, here's a shrimp.... running on a treadmill.... to the sultry sounds of Benny Hill Theme Music! Enjoy!

Wednesday, August 21, 2013


Pretty much everyone here knows HHH is my second husband. My first husband went whack a doo. Between the two of us, TONS of mistakes were made. Tons. By both of us. So after everything came to a head & a gun and shooting was involved, it was decided we would part ways. We do not speak. We do not have contact. I cannot even entertain the thought of having to talk to him without having a serious PTSD panic attack. For the last 14 years he hasn't had a job that offered health insurance. That was ok though. We have dealt with Medicaid & CMS for all of my daughter Mo's life to take care of her diabetes and the doctors have been wonderful. 

6 months ago, Mo's prescriptions started being denied by medicaid. I asked all the right questions and tried to find out why this was happening. No one knew. CMS couldn't figure it out. Medicaid couldn't figure it out. Lucky for me I had a surplus of stuff to get us by, but it has been dwindling pretty fast! I was at my wits end. Finally, at the kid's CMS endocrinology visit someone was able to tell me that my Ex had taken out insurance on her, therefore she didn't qualify for Medicaid anymore. 

Well great then. Glad after 14 years he finally paid heed to the court order. Now can I have the information so I can get Mo's prescriptions?

Oh, sorry we don't have that information.

Excuse me? How can you SAY she is covered, have proof she is covered, and NOT have the information I need to get the life saving medications to keep her alive??? CMS couldn't explain it, but they tasked me with the job of finding out myself. I had few options available to me. I called and called the medicaid hotline to try and get any information from them. My Ex had to have provided a policy number to prove he had complied with the court order, so SOMEONE had to have that number. I didn't get very far in the automated network of phones. Then I tried going to the pharmacy and giving them the ONE # I had for my EX and they could try to call him to get the information they needed to process Mo's meds. Nope. My Ex In Laws and my Ex refused to speak or return phone calls to the pharmacy AND CMS. My last and final hope was to call my local office of DCF and tell them that I was dealing with a hostile Ex and demand the insurance info or have them demand it from him. Lucky for me they gave up his policy number and the company it was through. All I had to do was call the company, provide my daughter's social# and answer a few questions. Finally! After 6 months... I had answers I needed. I could get my baby girls medicine.

Why did that seem so hard? Why didn't I just suck it up and call my Ex? Why was I being such a dumbass baby?

  1. My Ex went nuts after a traumatic event.
  2. The path of this going nuts included attending a "church" in a mobile home in the deep woods. VERY Branch Davidian.
  3. At one point my Ex actually believed he could call Angels down from Heaven to smite his enemies.
  4. When no Angels showed up to do the smiting, he got out his black powder rifle and tried to kill several people, including the kids and I.
  5. I have never been mentally "normal" after this. 
To say that I was suffering PTSD from all that and having panic attacks every time I had to explain to another new customer service representative about WHY I didn't speak to my Ex in person was putting it mildly. I was a shaking, crying mess. I'm surprised anyone could understand my gibberish. 

They say it's the bad, along with the good, that makes you into the person you are today, and I'd like to think I'm a pretty tough old bird on most days. I have a loving husband and great kids whom I love very much. So, sorry if I vented or seemed snappy on social media these last few weeks. I have, once again, dealt with an unreasonable person and have come out the other end bruised but better.

Now to gird my loins for the NEXT dumbass thing the Ex throws my way.

Friday, August 16, 2013

Turning Point.

I was driving back from my Friday client today. It was a muggy afternoon in Southwest Florida. The humidity was thick enough to cut with a machete. I drive down Hillsborough Ave In Tampa to go to and from my client out in Saltwater. As I am driving, I'm having to jog from lane to lane to avoid stupid traffic like people driving 20 miles under the speed limit, or someone having to come to a complete stop to turn into a side street. I've tried to be more forgiving of my fellow drivers. Perhaps someone is lost, or maybe their GPS is suffering a malfunction. I even find peace with the dreaded ancient crone driving her land yacht to the Hard Rock Casino even though she can't see over the dashboard! There are only 3 driving mistakes I will not forgive...

  1. Talking on the cell phone instead of paying attention.
  2. Not looking at where you're going.(ie-blind spots)
  3. Utilizing lanes for opposite purposes.
The first two are self explanatory. It has been proven time and time again that cell phone use while driving causes accidents. Many states have enacted laws penalizing texting and even talking on a cell phone without a hands free device. The look where you're going one is a no brainer as well. (Didn't stop some jackass from throwing his car in reverse to exit a parking space and almost hitting my car, THEN the guy getting pissed off at ME because I honked at him so he'd stop and NOT hit me! Sheesh!) That last one though... that one pisses me off.

Here's the scene. I am in the left hand lane approaching a traffic signal. There is a turn lane to my left, I am in the left travel through lane, and there are two more travel through lanes to my right. As I approach the intersection, I have to come to a screeching halt because some dumbass moron has missed getting into the left turn lane and is now doggedly occupying the left through lane with their blinker on, making me and everyone behind me miss the signal and possibly get rear ended in the process. What makes these people think they can just arbitrarily change the rules of the road?! I'm serious. I never saw a section in my drivers manual that said "If you miss your turn, just stop and throw on your turn signal in the travel lane. Someone might let you in eventually." No. It doesn't say that ANYWHERE! (and I have a teen who is getting her license and has studied the driver's handbook, so I'd know!) No, if you miss your turn you advance down the road, find a place to make a legal u turn, and try it again from the other direction. It's not a difficult thing to do. The way these people act, you'd think it was! It's ridiculous! 

If this was a rare occurrence, I'd let it go, but it is every damn time I drive to work. And always at the turn that takes people to the I-275 on ramp. The gall of some people being such rude drivers. It shouldn't surprise me anymore, yet I expect so much more of someone when they are behind the wheel of a 1+ ton machine that can bring death. ESPECIALLY if my kids are reaching driving age and will be on the roads with these morons!!! I guess the best defense is a good offense, so to speak.

So what is YOUR best(worst?)  "moron ignoring the rules of the road" story?

Thursday, August 15, 2013

School Days

I swear I haven't disappeared! I'm still here. Just trying to get stuff together for the first day of school. That would be next Tuesday the 20th. It's a yearly pain in the ass. 

An this year both my youngest are in Middle School.

So this should be fun....

Friday, August 9, 2013


So HHH got tickets to the Tampa Bay Buccaneer's preseason opener.  We went last night to watch the Bucs play the Super Bowl defending champions, the Baltimore Ravens. 

Someone was a VERY happy boy.

I even dressed for the occasion. (I'm a Jaguars fan.)

We were in the nosebleeds, but the view was amazing.

It was pretty empty in the stands.

And of course, the rain made sure to make it to the game.

Yeah... then the rain REALLY showed up to the game!

I think HHH thought I wasn't going to want to stay in the rain. I'll forgive him because he didn't know me when I was in college. He had no idea I was a member of the Crazy Fan Club. Rain, wind, lightning, cold, hail,..... IT'S FOOTBALL DAMN IT! SUCK IT UP!

In the end, the Bucs lost. I hate that pre season games are basically looked at as scrimmages because the starters play only one quarter, then they put in the second & third string. (The QB named Webber threw 3 picks in the 4th quarter. I don't think they'll be keeping him.) But it was a great time and HHH was so happy!  Best snap of the night was the above photo. The sun had broken through the clouds and shone behind the stadium. Lovely.

What did you guys do Thursday night?

Monday, August 5, 2013

Don't Ask

Doctor day was Monday.

I did get the forms filled out for the school.

I wasn't happy with a few things the endocrinologist had to say to me about my daughter.

Let's just say EVERYONE is going to be readjusting their attitudes towards our health. Things are going to start being rigidly enforced. 

Worst of all, Mo got her self medicating privileges at school taken away. 


Sunday, August 4, 2013


I know I haven't been here very often lately. What with school getting ready to start, I have been shopping and girding my loins for the inevitable fight I know I'll have with the schools about the kid's diabetes paperwork. Luckily, this year Jr will go to middle school, meaning that he can finally do his own medicating! He was ready to do it last year, but the nurse and principal at the elementary school wouldn't let him. 
6th grade! 
Where has the time gone?
Today I have a Dr appt with the endocrinologist. I am going to try and go by the school to get the papers we need filled out. There hasn't been someone there to give them to me, but I imagine T minus 3 weeks & counting means someone will finally be there Monday morning! 

So, if it looks like I've deserted the place, fear not. I've just gone to shoot down the school medical paper dragon!

And by the way.... what is the hardest part of your back to school routine?