Friday, September 9, 2011

Difficult

Original Photo above found here.

This is the 10th year anniversary of 9/11. It's a pretty big deal, both in America and abroad. I remember watching the news that day. I had walked down to my in-laws place and thought they were watching a TV action movie, but they quickly told me no, a plane had crashed into one of the towers at WTC, then as we watched GMA, we actually SAW the second plane fly into the other tower! It was then we started to realize things would never be the same. I felt Junior kick me in the bladder, and wondered what kind of world I was going to bear my son into. It was so sad, seeing the scared, the worried, the hopeless jump out of the windows of the WTC rather than die a fiery death. We weren't alone though, the world denounced the terrorists and everyone who supported them. One of my most touching memories from that week was of the Buckingham Palace Royal Marching Band playing the Star Spangled Banner to support our grieving country.

Almost everyone in the US had a connection to those who perished that day and in the days following. I didn't know anyone personally. Then came the news. I was connected,.... in a serious, sinister way....

I have never really told this story. Once it was told to me, I was sworn to not impart it to ANYONE. It was going to STAY a family secret, however Eldest had a report to do this year, and she joined journalism class, and OMG.... she was asking questions, so many many questions. So I spilled.

My older sister, in a money grubbing move, married an Egyptian National for $50,000 so he could get a green card and secretly establish himself as a base of operations on Florida's East coast for Al-Qaeda terrorists.

I haven't spoken, thought, or typed those words in 10 years.

My older sister could very well be responsible for aiding in the deaths of THOUSANDS of Americans!! OMG!! How does one reconcile with that?? I'm trying very hard not to bawl my eyes out typing this. Children died that day. Mothers and fathers died that day. Sisters, brothers, heroes.... all died that day, and my own flesh and blood helped those lousy bastards get a toe hold here in America to do this horrible thing. Her "husband" was later targeted by the US government(rather quickly) and my sister was put on notice she better get a lawyer. After that, I never spoke to her again. From what I gather, she wasn't sent to jail, but apparently a hefty fine & probation was levied for fraud in order to obtain a green card.

I explained this to my daughters and son on Tuesday, a catch in my throat, tears in my eyes. Eldest thought she had the story of a lifetime till I told her she wasn't allowed to write about it, but then I thought why keep the secret any longer?

So... I'm not. I am directly related to someone who helped the terrorists commit the most horrible atrocity out country, nay... THE WORLD has ever seen!

And I'm sorry. I know it's not my fault, and I didn't do it myself, but I'm so, so sorry.

7 comments:

Cathy said...

wow, just wow, I'm sorry for you that you have to bear the shame of something someone related to you did or contributed to. How horrible for you and your family.
Hugs

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I want to give you words of support, but I don't know what to say. Lots of people were duped by the terrorists. You are not your sister and are not responsible for her actions. I'm sorry that you have been walking around with this burden for 10 years. It took bravevery to admit this to the world and to let your eldest write about it.

Avitable said...

The way you write it, it sounds like she married him knowing that he was going to do that, and I don't think you mean that. You mean that she married him for the money, and his purpose was to do that, right? It's terrible, but the only people who really, truly did anything wrong are the ones who actually committed terrorism.

Poppy said...

People are responsible for their own choices in life. You own none of the responsibility for your sister's choices. Definitely none for the man she married. Definitely none for the people who chose to follow through with their task of getting on planes and using them as bombs.

If your sister didn't know who she was marrying... is there a reason why you're not talking to her? Is she "dead" to the whole family and that's that?

bellaventa.com said...

Listen - people enter into "Green Card" marriages every day. Is it right? No, but money talks and bullshit walks and it is what it is.

Regarding your sister, you can't possibly control the actions of others, especially since she married someone for money knowing he was planning to establish a terrorist cell. It's quite a heavy burden to bear and the stress will kill you. You did the best you could at the time with what you had and what you knew how to do....you HAVE To know that.

I would have probably distanced myself from her too not only because of the ethical issue but to prevent the FBI and CIA from looking at me as being part of this shit.

I hope the $50,000 was worth it....because damn.

Karl said...

What everyone else has said. This should not be your burden to bear. These were choices your sister made, and the terrorists made.

Megan said...

I hope getting this off your chest makes you feel better; it must have been awful carrying that.

I'm on my phone, so I wll just say "ditto" to what everyone else said.