I realized it a while ago, back when I was in High school, and I became comfortable with it. I adjusted who I hung out with, what kind of things I participated in, and how I lived my life. I dressed the part, acted the part, and basically.... it was just me.
I was and am a Tomboy.
There. I said it. It feels good to get that off my chest! Whew!
OK. All kidding aside, I have never been what one would call a "girlie girl". Oh I wore dresses in HS, I have heels, purses, make up, and all the trappings of the female life, but I just haven't felt the need to wear all that stuff every day of my life. Up until I discovered designer purses, I never really carried one. I never carried one in HS. Ever. I have make up, but unless I am going out or have a Dr. appointment or field trip, I just don't wear it. I have a ton of high heeled shoes, but if I am not going out on the town, (and that isn't very often at all), I just don't wear them. I have a grand total of two skirts in my closet. One doesn't really count because it is a skort. I have no dresses. I have plenty of slacks and dress pants. I have sensible 1 inch heels in a neutral color. I probably have more University of Florida clothing than anything else!
Oh, and speaking of UF, let's discuss the fact that I am also a sporty girl. Yes a sports crazed, football fanatic. I can discuss strategy and plays. I watch the draft and the signing day shows. I L-O-V-E ESPN. (Except when they hate on UF.) I also follow NFL, NCAA Basketball, MLB on occasion when the Indians are doing well, and I was glued to the Olympics. Russ from Dad's Who Mock can tell you I can hold my own in a sports discussion.
Then there is my language. My speech. The things I say. Let's just say sometimes it isn't exactly feminine. I have been known to say "I'm taking a piss." or "I gotta go drain the girl lizard." when referring to going to the bathroom. Originally, it was to get the attention of a male driver so he would stop for a bathroom break thus releasing me from my bladder induced nightmare. Me saying "I gotta take a piss" really loudly snaps the male from his driving induced coma. Or when dinner is ready, I'll burst out with a hearty, "Chow Time!!!!!" June Clever I am not. I've never really been a girls girl..... I've mostly always been a guy's girl. Always.
I was friends with more guys than girls. Always. They liked the fact that they could talk to me and be themselves and I wouldn't be all, "EEEWWW!" or "Oh that's gross!". They liked being able to ask me about what to do with their girlfriends when the waters were choppy in their relationships. It wasn't long before I wasn't too popular with those girlfriends. A lot of my time was spent trying to prove that I wasn't a threat to those relationships. How they thought I was, I'll never know. They were all done up to look like barbie dolls, I was in torn jeans, t shirts and Reebok's.
Today things aren't very different. With the exception of liking to carry a purse now, I haven't changed very much. I'm still a guy's girl. HHH likes that about me....... I think? The other day I answered his question of where I was by hollering out..."I'm taking a piss.... be right out!" and got from HHH..."TINKLE..... You're taking a tinkle!" Tonight I was discussing it with him and I think he just realized that .......
"HE DIDN'T MARRY A GIRLIE GIRL!!!"
How could he have missed it? It was always there. The love of football...... the way I dress...... the way I talk...... how did HHH not see it?
I laughed at him when I realized he didn't see me as a tomboy. We have been together for almost 9 years, married for 5 of them, and he never saw me the way I have always seen myself. I never thought I'd be seen as pretty, or fancy, or even frilly! It's sweet that HHH sees the girly and nice. I feel better about myself as a woman when my husband thinks I am feminine. Weird, right?
Maybe there's some sugar and spice in there after all!